What is Magickal Thinking and can it help me?

Magical thinking is the belief that one's ideas, thoughts, wishes, or actions can influence the course of events in the physical world.

If you look at Google - there are not many kind words said about 'magical thinking'.
In a nutshell, we are told that, well...we are delusional if we think that we can change the course of our life by thinking it into existence.

Psychology Today says:"Magical thinking is defined as believing that one event happens as a result of another without a plausible link of causation. For example: "I got up on the left side of the bed today; therefore it will rain." 

The problem with this definition, however, is that exactly what constitutes "a plausible link of causation" can be difficult to pin down. If we were to take this phrase to its logical extreme, we'd have to consider a belief in anything that hasn't been scientifically proven to represent magical thinking. 

On the other hand, rejecting the use of any and all criteria with which to judge cause and effect leaves us vulnerable to believing that anything can cause anything—or even worse, that an effect can occur without a cause at all."

If we are faced with this type of objection to believing that magic can be of substance in our world and our life, how can we allow ourselves to believe that it can actually work.

Does it also mean that our core beliefs must first shift before we have any real  results?

We might think we are thinking magically - but are we really?
Maybe we just are going through the motions, but deep down what we truly believe is that we are just 'having ourselves on'?

True belief in magickal thinking  (yes, I've added a 'k') means that we have to believe, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that there is a force that we can harness to make the world do what we want it to. 

It means that we must also believe that we have some amount of power and control over what happens to us and what we can make happen.

Magical thinking must also include magickal manifesting and magickal believing to create a magical outcome.

It's simply no good to just think magickally if we do not act upon it in a way that can positively add to our lives.

We need proof.
We want to know that it works.

This means an all encompassing  belief that our thoughts can create and manifest changes in the world around us. I know I have just said that - but I need to really allow it to sink is as the very base point of beginning.

For magickal thinking  to be effective we have to challenge our core beliefs and our sceptical mind.

Our mind must be clear of guilt and shame in what we are doing.
We have to understand what has come before - our family, our religious beliefs, our circumstances, and make amends with all of that.

We begin again.
This is the first step in creating magick - it's giving ourselves permission in spite of everything that has come before.

Even though.
In spite of.

Our untapped abilities are there to be harnessed and used for our betterment and for the opportunity to make this world a better place and to have a place in it for ourselves.

Are you ready?
Do you want to?
We may have already been trying our whole lives at this point.
But, let's try again shall we.
What is there to lose.
Dig deeper than ever before.

I hope you can look more deeply into magickal thinking as a positive, not a negative, and think outside your assigned or limiting 'box'.
There you will find yourself and your way.
Let your intuition guide you to your teachers and to your study.

We can change anytime we wish to make it so.
Deeply and profoundly.

Creating a Magickal Life - Too much WOO WOO??

When is woo woo and promises too much woo woo and promises?

When have some Facebook Marketers crossed the line by using 'spirituality' as just another new money making spin?

I think I've seen it of few times too many lately. There is so much out there when you start to look and your beliefs are a sacred element of you. When they are triggered you are likely to either become really sucked in or you run a million miles.

What I worry about is the promise that this new found way of making money, as long as you 'release all negativity and look at money as being a spiritual gift that you deserve'  - this is the missing piece to solve all financial problems.

We know it is not.

It can be an illusion if we cannot get a grip on the realness of our personal situations.

Marketeers need to hustle - and they need to make you hustle. You cannot sit back in your easy chair and make millions on line.
Some will.
Most everybody else wont.

Marketing is marketing - masquerading it and putting a ribbon on top by saying we are all being spiritual about it is foolish.

I have seen people spinning out from receiving information from some people first hand that leaves them overwhelmed and ungrounded. Oh my goodness - the language used is simply so cute yet so wrong.
Marketeers are aiming for the heart making people feel that they are all potential Gods and Goddesses and have the capacity to turn their lives around on a penny.

That is not going to happen if you have issues that need proper real life solutions.

People find these 'tribes' that seem gloriously accepting of how amazing they are and that is now where they want to be. These tribes are just more tools to keep taking money out of the vulnerable
(at times).
Not all.
Not all....please its not ALL OF THEM.

But it is some.
And if you cannot keep up with making the same amount as other 'students' then does that make you feel better or worse?
Does it motivate or humiliate the very vulnerable?

Does all of this woo woo delivered by glamorous presenters guaranteeing six figure bank balances really ring true?

I know, I know..

I should just move on and not watch.
I have a choice.
I can choose to click unlike.

I am hopeful that if people reach out to these wonderful people that they are treated on a person to person capacity.

I hope that it reaches the right ears at the right time and is of benefit to the few that are there at that point where it makes total sense.

I hope that those who realise that it is not for them take what is motivational and do not try to go beyond their capacity to cover their needs before spending money on something they cannot use.

I hope this spiritual business model is also ethical.

A Witch's Road Less Travelled

January 2019

What do people look for in witchcraft?
Does it fulfil a spiritual need that can no longer be fulfilled by mainstream religions?
Is it about the feeling that you are part of a unique tribe of like minded thinkers?
Is it rebellion against society and it's pigeon holing of people?
For women, it may be a place that is empowering to them as it focuses on the feminine.

My dedication to the road less travelled saved my sanity about 30 years ago.
I was looking for a harbour in the shit storm that was my life.

My relationship was an abusive shambles.
I had a young baby.
I had been bullied all my life for being fat and not pretty enough.
I had no idea of how to stand up to myself.
I had no self esteem.
I'd come out of anorexia.
I was a mess.
And most of those problems were of my own making.
Grasping at straws.


I floated in and out of witchcraft as it was just too hard to combat renouncing my Catholicism whilst still in my marriage. My strict Catholic parents, who had kept me on a tight structured leash my whole life, still had a huge unhealthy influence on me even into my 20's.

I had been bought up in the times when you were to be 'seen, but not heard' and it was no big deal to feel the back hand from your father if you dared speak up or talk back.

Witchcraft was something that I had been interested in since I could pick up books.
My background is Eastern European - pagan roots were deeply embedded in my soul.
It felt like home and I could not understand why my parents taught me some of the old ways, but did not want me to believe in them.
It was just for 'show'.
It allowed for others of my nationality to have a festival day - but then we went back to our Christian ways.

All I had to do was find my way back.
It was going to happen.
I promised myself that - there would come a time when I was free to be me.

That chaotic time of my life built space, as it totally destroyed me.
That destruction allowed for rebuilding.
It tore up the paperwork that was my life.
Within that heartache I didn't believe in anything.
God allowed this pain?
Yes - we were meant to suffer because we were born of original sin.
This was not for me.
I could not take another step forward with this mindset.


The rebuilding finally came when I relinquished all connections with my Catholic upbringing and stopped being scared of the consequences of what would happen (lovely Catholic guilt - as I call it).

As I left my marriage and stepped foot onto a lonely road on my own, I still heard, in my head, the voices of my parents who said to me "you made your bed - you can sleep in it" when I asked them for help.

A good Catholic girl didn't divorce - what a scandal on the family!
I was unfit.
I could not even keep a marriage together - you just stayed married no matter how hard life was.
My mother was horrified.
She had lived in a dysfunctional marriage - so should I.

I dove deeply into paganism and witchcraft and into learning about the darkness that many people don't touch - the dark side of the psyche.

I dove into trying to understand how I got to where I was and how I was going to get out of that incredibly painful place.

I started to put myself together.

Re-crafting my life was secret.

I did not venture out publicly for another 10 years. I joined a local witch meetup group.
I felt welcomed and at home.
 I bought the crystals and the cape - I attended rituals and learnt to be a witch within a public setting.
It was painful.
There were people here who could hurt as much as what I encountered in my own marriage.
I persisted.
Topics discussed never ventured beyond 'white magic'.
That was fine but I needed more.
I was stuck in a witchcraft that did not seem genuine to me - it lacked depth.
I needed it to build character and fortitude, not just give me a full draw of crystals and a pile of pretty books.

I was still in a turbulent ocean and sinking.

I needed an anchor - not a life buoy.
I needed to dive deep down and discover what was underneath the waves not just keep floating on the top.

I rarely found personal stories to read.
Mostly, what material was available, was about the same subjects just in a different orders - the wheel of the year, different uses for crystals, basic spell work, dreams etc.

Then I found tarot.

Tarot allowed me to use my mind to explore the psychology of each card and to translate the pictures going deeper and deeper.
I could see my life in the cards.
All of the things I had been through were there.
My life in those cards.

I now knew which path to take and as those cards and witchcraft led me to a deeper understanding of all things.

When the student is ready the teacher appears.

So very true.

Maybe, my thought is that, that some of my lessons may be useful to you too - so I hope to share more during the coming months.

Maybe you too are after something a little meatier?

Let me know.

Otherwise, I am just writing for my own therapy - and that's OK too.

How do I know that I am a witch?

I have seen many of these type of questions most recently on different sites specifically sent in by new ones on this journey or those who may feel ill equipped to tackle sites, spaces and covens filled with groups of people who are not making it clear as to the 'criteria' involved in their view of what it is to be a witch.

Now, before you go all crazy arse on me for that statement, I want to make it clear that I do not believe that there are special criteria involved in 'becoming' a man or woman on this path.

There are too many groups who make it hard.
Too many steps and too many ritualistic bridges to cross.
I know that for many starting up covens and groups may be the right way to go and if that is you tread carefully.
Choose a group that treats everyone equally and doesn't allow internal conflict.

Wicca has elements of structure that I no longer wish to follow (although, I will say, that it was a part of my life for many years until the women in these covens showed me their true souls and I left time and time again) and also, leaving that behind was a required part of my evolution to get me to where I find myself now.


No one can really make you a witch just as no one can make you a Catholic.
You can go through rituals in both.
You can be born into a family of witches or Catholics (or any other religious belief) but, because you call yourself one - are you really?

You can only be whatever you choose to call yourself if you, yourself give yourself totally to that path.

If you are feeling called to identify as a witch then blessings to you - Goddess knows we need more of you right now.
There is great change afoot.
We are all unravelling.
We are falling apart to make space for the great work of rebuilding.

The Earth and the energies of this planet MUST be protected by us.
So, if you are up for this challenge and do want to follow this road, be prepared to stand up and ACT.

No fluffy shit.
No mindless following of others without questioning.

Prepare to be singular.
To be strong in the face of all adversity and ridicule.

Prepare to be the change you want to see.

Walk your talk.

If you identify as a witch then act like one.

Keep it simple and stay silent.

No one needs to know what is in your heart and STOP ASKING IF YOU ARE ONE.
Do not second guess what your ancestors are calling you to do.
Not everyone hears these whispers -if YOU DO, you have been chosen.

I know what those whispers sound like - they are a drum that does not shut up until you say "yes".

If your soul is crying out to you then listen to it.

Read good material.
Follow leaders who are not enmeshed in ego or ask you to turn cartwheels to fit into their views or their covens.

Do not do anything you are uncomfortable in doing just to belong.

YOU ALREADY BELONG TO THE GREAT ANCESTRY OF ALL OF THOSE THAT CAME BEFORE YOU.

You are hearing the whispers.

And that is OK.

Take an oath, personally , quietly, to follow this path for a year and a day and so so with total and absolute commitment.
There does not need to be a ritual.
You do not require a song and dance - if you choose not to.
Just a space in time when you answer the call.

Then, make up your mind if you have been a 'witch', if you have lived by the truths you feel belong to that ethos. Have you become the person you are proud to be, have you helped others, have you made a change in who you live and walk upon this Earth.

Have you healed yourself or begun to.
Has it made you feel whole?

May your journey be sweet dear ones and let's change the world together.

Witchy Manifesting

As I will so Mote it Be!

Do you really believe that?
Do you believe those words.
As
I
Will
So 
Mote 
It
Be.


For manifesting to occur and for you to have the capacity to create your reality you must make those words come to life for you.
You need to persist until they are believed.
Doubt in them will so a seed of fear that you have no power.
That you are just faking it.
Lying to yourself.

That is one of the core requirements.
I like Aleister Crowley's explanation of magick - 

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Magick_(Thelema)

Magick, in the context of Aleister Crowley's Thelema, is a term used to show and differentiate the occult from performance magic and is defined as "the Science and Art of causing Change to occur in conformity with Will", including both "mundane" acts of will as well as ritual magic.

If we ponder that for a moment before we get all feisty and try to make impossible changes let start with the mundane and things closer to home and little creative master peices that we can get an handle on and that can slowly confirm our power to ourselves.

Finishing things that have lain dormant for years.

Clearing and de-cluttering to make way room for the new.

Ending relationships that foul our lives.

Changing the life of one other person by random acts of kindness

Learning more about your path.

These small seemingly mundane day to day happenings pave the way to bigger and greater things as time goes by.

Starting off with causing change to conform with one's will doesn't always mean the big and bold.

In fact, it is much less likely to happen 'big and bold' if you cannot muster the control of the small and insignificant  (to others).

The hardest lesson to learn is control of oneself in one's own matters.

Get a grip on your life so that you feel the sway of magick slowly running through every fibre of your body.

Glastonbury

Finally I arrived at my 'home' away from home today in Glastonbury.
When I saw the Tor on the hill looming over the landscape, my heart missed a beat I was so excited.
My travelling companion had not been before so she was unaware of what was waiting.

A little in shock and overwhelmed by the energy of just being in the area we arrived at the Covenstead on Magdeline Street and did a lot of 'oohh' and 'ahh' as we were led into this amazing bed and breakfast and then shown our room.

We have been allocated the "Arthurian Room' which is gigantic with 2 double beds.

We are so very lucky to be spoilt by having a bed each and also we got parking space out the back.

If you have never been to the Covenstead it is truly a magickal place within a magickal place.

Do yourself a favour and stay - even one night. It is filled with glorious witchy stuff and they encourage you to touch and read.

After a quick rest we headed down to the shops, only 2 minutes walk away, and started to wander in and out of shops and absorb the atmosphere of Glastonbury.

2 hours later we have been to about half of them but we arrived late today and shops close between 5pm and 5.30pm.

So tomorrow is another shopping day.

More importantly we will be visiting the Chalice Well and the White Well tomorrow for some magickal vibes.

So close I can almost smell it...England!

Bags are packed.
Money in my wallet.
Passport ready.
Tomorrow I head to Sydney for a final bit of work and Tuesday afternoon I will be leaving Australia to a long and agonizing sit in a big tin can in the sky.
But...that tin can is taking me to England and to some of my favourite witchy places.

So I am happy to suffer.

Really, we cannot complain air travel is amazing and we are so lucky to be able to get to the other side of the world in 24 hours.

Firstly I hit London, where I am heading straight to Treadwell's, Watkin's books and ATLANTIS!!!!
the Atlantis bookshop is the oldest esoteric bookshop in England.

I am so very excited to see this shop.

Then I head out to join a bus tour of Pendle Hill and I follow the story of the Pendle Hill witch trials.

We are also going to join in some ghost hunting there and experience some old fashioned table tipping. Little do they know were run our own seances and are well versed in this magickal way of connecting with the departed.

The we are  driving back down down Galstonbury and immersing ourselves (I am travelling with a bestie) in all things witchy there and also Cornwall is on the agenda and ofcourse, the Witches Museum.

So many photos and live feeds to come.

Please head to my Facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/secretwitchbiz/
To check out my witchy adventure and see loads of photos of all of those magickal spots that most of us just spend our lives dreaming and reading about.

My accommodation at Glastonbury is the Covenstead:http://covenstead.co.uk/
Can I just say that this place is amazing!!

The shopping on the main strip is to die for and you just want to buy EVERYTHING!!

I will pop back into Chalice Well of course too -

For me this trip is a rejuvenation and a reapplication of my commitment to my path.
I can refresh my energies and fill myself up with the energies that can be found in these places that have deep roots to our ancestors and to the ways of the old ones.


I need this - I so need this.
So much has happened this year that has been unpleasant and disruptive.
People have left me down and made promises that they had no intention of keeping.

I have had a car accident that wrote off a car that I could happily have driven for another 10 years.
My beautiful puppy dog almost died 2 weeks ago and broke our heart with anxiety and worry for the little sweetheart.

He is OK now but just before my trip but all of my money that I saved to go overseas with was spent on his vert bills.

Life got challenging on many occasions - but in the end, I just got on with it and got through it because that's what we witches do.

As I grow older and know that I now have less years ahead than more every moment on this Earth becomes precious and there is a massive need for me to make the most of it.

I dig deeper than ever before and I need to find my place.

I need to find myself.

Walking in the same steps of my ancient witch ancestors makes me feel alive and I am totally connected and understand where I belong.

There is a beautiful sense of being one with everything.

Blessed be to you all.

Quieting Down to Feel More

I have been doing a lot of work lately with meditation and mindfulness and connecting more to the world as a whole.

Meditation seems to many to be something that belongs to other spiritual pathways and maybe not so much to those following a witch or pagan road.
I have not found it to be so.
I have found that connecting in quietness and stillness to all that is around us broadens our empathy and our entanglement to all energies.

In our sensory overloaded world we, as witches, can find ourselves bombarded with stuff that really does not belong in our realm of experience.

We can be bombarded so hard that it makes our path seem lost in a mist of over commitment, of limited time, of too much to do and not enough time to do it in.

We can see the difficulties of others, of being ostracised, of ridicule , of difficulties that are foisted upon us through social media, television, world events.

Yet if you dare pull yourself away from the noise of the world, if you dare unplug - if you were to take yourself away to a spot in nature where you are surrounded by bird song, a stream, leaves whispering in the breeze, what do you hear and how do you feel?

Your mood will change immediately when you connect back with that essence.

For that is the true sound of the world - quietness and calmness and not the crazy noise we have created as human beings busy to get to our destinations and finish our tasks.

We all need to slow down and stop more often that we give ourselves time to do so.
It allows the brain to make sense of all that we are dealing with and allows our own minds to filter the information and store it properly.

If we just keep shoving things in we will end up exploding and just breaking down.

Everyone's computer needs to be backed up, cleaned out and and rebooted right?

How much more sensitive is our brain! How much more precious is our mind - our personal storage system of all there is in our world.

Creating peace within ourselves allows us to feel more in charge and capable.
It allows us to be ready for the next thing to come along and not think that one MORE thing will just break us.

In our quiet moment we can connect with our Mother Earth so that she can clear and cleanse us.

We cannot connect with the ancients, Gods and Goddesses and Earth energies that we work with and grant them the ability to work with our bodies.
If we are forever busy we are just pushing them away and saying I'll find time for you later, and you and I both know that time never arrives.

If we are to be truly witches we must place value on what is VALUABLE to US.

Meditation and Mindfulness builds a strong core. It builds your backbone and a place to start from where you say, "the rest of the world needs to wait while I deal with myself first and get myself centred and strong - then I can come out fighting."

Think about incorporating Mindfulness and Meditation into your daily habit.
Stat with a 2 minute meditation or a 5 minute meditation.
You can find those easily on your mobiles.
Or try silence.
try turning off your notifications, snapchat, twitter etc.
SIT IN SILENCE.

You will actually find that over time your chosen Gods and Goddesses will be able to be heard loud and clear.

Just...give...them...the ...space.. to..do...so.

A spiritual journey to England

Myself and a very good 'sista from another mother' are going to be heading to England in just 12 days.

This is going to be an opportunity to release the shackles of my daily life, although my life is terrible gifted right now - but, it will be all about diving head deep into witchiness x 1000 as we go on a spiritual journey of deep self discovery.

Both of us have taken on the roles of doing amazingly gratifying work as mediums and it is actually very fitting to go on a retreat right now, and actually RETREAT from the outer world as we look for balance and solace within the witchy corners of England.

We will be heading to Glastonbury and Cornwall.

We will be visiting the Witch's Museum. I have already been, but my sista has not. I could go there 100 times.

In Glastonbury we will be visiting the wells and the tor and just sucking in the vibe as deeply as we can.

We will also be taking part in a 3 day Pendle Hill witch tour which I am so very excited about that I am almost busting.

I may take advantage of doing some rituals and having a psychic reading while I am there and I want to bring home loads of witchy goodies.

I would love to take my sista to Knaresborough to see Mother Shipton's Cave but I don't think we will make it as we have a  packed itinerary.

If you are reading this and know of any great sites to visit ( and I know there will be many) that we could go to see whilst in Glastonbury, Cornwall, Pendle Hill and along that route please reply and let us know.

We are open to taking some of your suggestions.

The photos in this blog are all mine from previous visits to England. I would love to share my journey and thoughts with you all. Please hop in this blog during the weeks to come and join me as we journey back to our witchy roots.

Retrograde - Save Yourselves the Angst!

Oh please - oh please, let this pesky retrograde shit be OVER....or is that just an excuse for people to be so senseless and unthinking right now?

Maybe this is just the way the world has become?

Whoever says that the planets don't have anything to do with people's attitudes and behaviours needs to take a walk on the wild side and head out into the wide world - even the local supermarket will do, and you will see and hear things that will make your eyes and ears bleed.

Secret witches we are in a shit storm of human waste at present!!!

Anxiety and anger are rising to levels that reach out there proportions! Empaths and sensitives are on a roller coaster ride of grand scale whoop arse pain and may have difficulty in even staying upright at the moment.

I'm feeling it that's for sure and even though I know I am feeling it, and am trying to do something about it on an energetic level, sometimes this tsunami of human poo poo can get way too much, even for the most experienced witches.

Therefore, if you are overwhelmed right now - we feel your pain. You are dealing with your own stuff plus everyone else's that is flying around in the atmosphere.

And, to follow up on the flying analogy, it's a good idea to follow the suggestion of the air line stewardess when she says, 'make sure you put your oxygen mask on FIRST, before you help anyone else".

It's time to stop helping others.

It's time to look after yourself.

Where I live, it hasn't rained for months either, and, we need a good cleansing storm to wash away the dross of humanity's vileness and selfishness.

But it's dry and no rain is expected for at least another two weeks.

Please take a moment today to light a candle (rather than feeling the need that it would be better served in sticking it up someone's arse) and meditate on bringing back a sense of FOCUS.

And.....just mind your own business.

I don't mean that rudely - I mean it as a survival technique.

Guard yourself, don't give out help, don't seek to be good and a saviour to all.

Grab your Tourmaline, sage the shit out of your sacred space and stay out of people's faces for a while.

Just get yourself through.

That's all I can say right now.

Peace out Sistas and Brothers.

Have you fu**ked up your life by coming out as a Witch?

Has this happened to you?
Have you sat on 'coming out' for ages and then thought that it was the right time and BAM! your nearest and dearest have thought you are just going through a phase, or have gone slighty new agey, hippy, are back lashing against conservatism?

Have you been a closet witch and have always felt it best to stay that way?

Maybe you have been loud and proud ever since you donned your first pentagram?

Or, lucky you, you have come from a long line of witches?

We hope that we can find community, that being a witch will lead us to like minded people who share our passion for self development and love of the craft but it is not always so.

Sometimes announcing to the world at large that you are a witch is still frowned upon.

I did not really say much about my beliefs to my parents while they were both alive as I know it would have hurt their strong Catholic beliefs.

Plus, I don't think I could have put up with the flak that saying anything would have caused while I was at home.

Later, I was busy raising children and getting over a relationship that did not work - so it was not something that was part of my life.

In my crone years though, it has become an essential part of my life.

Coming home to me!
Being older gives you an ability to not give a f**k as much about what people think.

Most people will find a reason to hate you,if they so wish, and really, is being a witch so bad !!!!! considering all the really awful things humans do to each other?

But, the point of this blog is to say, don't feel that you must come out to validate your beliefs to yourself if it is going to cause so much friction that live will be miserable.
You do not have to prove anything to anybody.

There is nothing worse than having to deal with people's opinions and hatred about something they most probably know nothing about yet are the first to criticise.

You will find the right time and the right place to be you.

And if know one else knows about it - so mote it be.

No one else needs to, because this is your truth and not theirs.

Sometimes silence is the best way forward and truly embracing your pathway to ancient wisdom is much more than just symbolic, where you feel you MUST have an altar, you MUST wear the appropriate garb or you must have a right statuette etc.

We all do it differently and that's OK - but it doesn't make you any LESS a witch by not doing any of that or by not showing other witches that you do.

The most important thing is to get in touch with yourself and keep an open mind to your own growth. You will know when you feel safe to tell your loved ones and you will know when not to.

Some of us live in very conservative areas where it's still a taboo thing.
People still look at me as if I have fallen from another planet if I say something and they think I am even crazier because I am not a teen or having a mid life crisis - I am now a crone and they can still find an excuse ( oh it must be menopause - its fiddling with her brain!)

So grin and bear it for the team peeps.
You know in your heart that some people are not ready for the truth and may never will be.

Stay true to you and you will find your own best way.

I am interested to know if you have come up against a barrier to your beliefs and your craft?

Where has it come from?
Has it stopped you or just made you stronger?

Love to you this Sunday in the Southern Hemisphere.

Manifesting can bring up deep beliefs and issues

Be careful what you wish for?
Ah yes - a lesson I have learnt over and over again.

Even in the midst of trying to improve mindset and positive thinking we can certainly be effected by triggering early learning from our family of origin that is exposed as we bring our attention to it.

We are only as strong as our inner most scars and triggers.

Often, just when you are trying to get stronger, those triggers spark because the inner most voice tells us that we can't.

This voice was placed there by someone who may have wanted us to be safe, or may have just been a crazy person wanting to only please themselves.

Either way, we learned that we had no power to make our lives better.

So, many years later after trying and failing, here we are again, being in a small place of willingness to once again make that life affirming change and yet again that little voice screams....'no you can't'.

Our inner little witch child is speaking to us - crying out to be recognised and to be allowed to live in the power and truth that it knows.

My last epic fail to soothe my own inner child has led to more commitment than ever, as I do not wish to leave this world not having forged a bridge to cross and get over it.

So, as I am still treating my child, I need to:

1. Say NEVER GIVE UP - KEEP GOING - KEEP TRYING - YOU CAN DO THIS!!
2. Create a way of rewarding my inner child every time she does good. Something I forget to do and you and I both know that often we rarely, as adults, feel that others appreciate all the things we do and when we make marked achievements in our own growth and advancement.

No matter how old we are our own small voice that was never healed, nor loved, nor seen, or heard, nor touched, or whatever we missed out on or were forced to endure still screams with the same intensity.

So we do need to treat it as a child screaming for the primal needs to be fulfilled before we can become whole.

We can, if you like, call this shadow work.

Dealing with that part of ourselves that lingers in the darkened edges of our life.

As with trying to give up a bad habit - we have to keep trying.
We have to hold out our hand and invite that darkness back and look at it fairly and squarely in the face and call it out for what it is.

We can no longer blame the people who gave that voice breath.

As we are now adults and we are responsible for all that we do.

Remember - whenever you talk to yourself the Universe is listening  and she will only give you what you think you deserve.

Speak gently to yourself.

Let's explore this more in the days ahead.

Manifesting the next big step and then falling into the ditch in between

We want to go big and bold.
Yes we do - and everything in our conscious mind tells us that we need to get out of the rut and grow.
It's our time.
We can do this!

We have read the books, done the manifestation videos, meditations and mantras.
Most people think we are a bit insane with the positive vibes we are trying to maintain continuously.

We have culled of Facebook page.
We don't answer the phone from people who are whiny and negative.

We surround ourselves with white light, bubbles, angels.

And then.
It happens.

We get a break.
Something comes our way.

It could be small or it could be massive.

But it's here.

And as we take the leap of faith... because now we must...we have asked for a sign and here it is.

Underneath our feet appears a HUGE abyss.
The abyss -from here to there.

The abyss that rises and says, if you do this you will be changing your future.

Its a sliding doors moment.

So what are your thoughts right now?
What's going on in your body?
Are you frightened of the consequences?
Is your stomach in knots?
Headaches?
Not sleeping?


For me, it has been a matter of realising that I will have to work harder.
This working harder business stopped me every time.

I watched my father work hard all his life and get no where.
I also watched him not take up a rare opportunity in his life time that would have seen him working as an artist for a magazine because he didn't want to take the risk, as he was the single bread winner for his family.

The job he might have gotten would have been astounding - but it would have meant moving states. The job he had was on a factory floor, mind numbing and hard - but it was secure.

This frozen moment for him has stayed with me forever.
He chose to not take the risk.
That was a brave decision - to know that the rest of his life he would remain on that factory floor until they made him redundant.
Until they said, we don't need you any more.

So whenever I have had a prospective opportunity come up - I have swayed to the 'don't take the risk' scenario.
If you do it - it will just mean more hard work and you will never get anywhere anyway.

You want money - but you are not prepared to change your present situation ENOUGH.
You know the pain you are in - you are used to it.
Moving to a new pain (and it always been seen as pain) won't achieve anything.

These are the thoughts I have.

And so in the midst of that step into the abyss.
I change my mind  and step back.

Its much safer staying in the pain that I know.


So I go back onto the roundabout and wonder why nothing ever comes my way.

Do you have the same issues?

The problem is...COMPLETE COMMITMENT.

Just think about that today.
Think about whether there is part of you that is so scared to succeed that you trip yourself up as you step into the abyss.

You may find that you do - just like I did.

May your weekend open up many new possibilities.

Hey, how are you doing?

Sometimes all we want is someone to check in and make sure we are still alive.
Sometimes its just about going, "Hey, want to meet up for a cuppa and talk shit?"

Being switched on 24/7 can lead to being too obsessive about our lives where we just create more problems for ourselves by over thinking every next move and idea.

Remember that we do not have to keep a watchful eye over everything that happens in our lives in the attempt to try an avoid the next disaster.

Sometimes shit just happens no matter how we have tried to conjour, create, manifest and be in control of our lives and the events that surround it.

We COULD stay locked up in our homes and never come out!

But, that would be a disaster and there is a syndrome for the poor individuals that suffer from such a debilitating illness.

So we face each day with a bright expectation of GOOD but in fullness knowing that nothing and or everything might just happen.

So, this weekend, allow yourself time to strip away the obsessiveness of being in total control.
You may find that when you just allow the Universe to work for you that strange and wonderful things start to happen.

For within control, you also may be keeping the magickal in life at bay.
You may be so worried about doing the right thing and knowing each and every scenario inside out that you disallow the magick to happen.

Take a moment to be nice to someone and check with them this weekend - pay the goodness in your heart forward with an email, snapchat, message, call or face to face emotional connection from your heart to theirs.

It will be a seriously witchy thing to do.

Words and thoughts original - The Secret Witch