Ah yes - a lesson I have learnt over and over again.
Even in the midst of trying to improve mindset and positive thinking we can certainly be effected by triggering early learning from our family of origin that is exposed as we bring our attention to it.
We are only as strong as our inner most scars and triggers.
Often, just when you are trying to get stronger, those triggers spark because the inner most voice tells us that we can't.
This voice was placed there by someone who may have wanted us to be safe, or may have just been a crazy person wanting to only please themselves.
Either way, we learned that we had no power to make our lives better.
So, many years later after trying and failing, here we are again, being in a small place of willingness to once again make that life affirming change and yet again that little voice screams....'no you can't'.
Our inner little witch child is speaking to us - crying out to be recognised and to be allowed to live in the power and truth that it knows.
My last epic fail to soothe my own inner child has led to more commitment than ever, as I do not wish to leave this world not having forged a bridge to cross and get over it.
So, as I am still treating my child, I need to:
1. Say NEVER GIVE UP - KEEP GOING - KEEP TRYING - YOU CAN DO THIS!!
2. Create a way of rewarding my inner child every time she does good. Something I forget to do and you and I both know that often we rarely, as adults, feel that others appreciate all the things we do and when we make marked achievements in our own growth and advancement.
No matter how old we are our own small voice that was never healed, nor loved, nor seen, or heard, nor touched, or whatever we missed out on or were forced to endure still screams with the same intensity.
So we do need to treat it as a child screaming for the primal needs to be fulfilled before we can become whole.
We can, if you like, call this shadow work.
Dealing with that part of ourselves that lingers in the darkened edges of our life.
As with trying to give up a bad habit - we have to keep trying.
We have to hold out our hand and invite that darkness back and look at it fairly and squarely in the face and call it out for what it is.
We can no longer blame the people who gave that voice breath.
As we are now adults and we are responsible for all that we do.
Remember - whenever you talk to yourself the Universe is listening and she will only give you what you think you deserve.
Speak gently to yourself.
Let's explore this more in the days ahead.
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